Prime

I perceive that I live my life on multiple planes or dimensions. I am sure I am not the first to think about this. It seems that these dimensions are sometimes connected; yet it feels like sometimes they are completely disconnected.

Sometimes, I am moving along in one or more dimension, and the other dimensions appear to be dormant. A couple of the most active dimensions in my life right now are my immediate family and my work/career—speckled with some relationships with friends at the Spring, other family members, and an in-and-out connect with God.

At different periods of time, I have the capacity for living in more dimensions and other times fewer. I think I am in a slooooow upswing right now. A couple of years ago, I took a decided downswing. Right now, I long to have a deeper connect with God, others, and my creative side. I am not sure how to expand my capacity. Yet I can barely keep up with the dishes and laundry. I have so many things I would like to do and pursue, yet I feel as though I am at maximum throughput at the moment. I try to squeeze in a little here or there—my clock project is one example. I would love to begin telling some stories on video, yet I feel as though I am at near maximum capacity right now.

I wonder if my stagnant dimensions are somehow being carryied along by my active ones. What the stagnant ones will look like when they “land” and take a more active role. I don’t want to wait too long—life is short and I don’t want to regret which dimensions filled my life, and I don’t regret the time I spend with my wife and kids, nor in providing for them. In fact, I wish I could give more to them. I want to expand. But I also long to creatively express myself. Will it be in a career change? Will it be alongside of my current work?

I am curious. What do you think? I will try and add more later.